I have having mixed feelings about life again.  Maybe what I’m doing is not in my blood. Maybe I should try something else?  What am I most comfortable doing?  I realise that I will start to question myself after attending courses or after a holiday trip.  It had happened before and it looks like the whole process will start all over again.  Change is inevitable after all.  Currently there’s just no excitement and the adreneline rush.  There’s nothing to look forward to.  Things are not interesting enough for me to be interested.  Just like people around me.  In fact they are so sickening that I wonder why life is so good to them?  I’m not eating sour grapes but I simply believe evil and scheming pple should come to no good end eventually.

Sometimes I just wish life could be simpler.  Humans are too smart.  That’s why we make things complicated.   What would happen if there is really the end of the world?  I think I would be quite happy. Seriously.  Why?  Cos I feel that human are polluting the earth with every second of our existence.  We are just murdering the earth slowly, taking away all she can give just to prolong our existence in the world.  How will we all die when that day approaches?  What will happen at the end of it?  Perhaps we will just go back to ice age? Or maybe earth would become empty like the moon.  It’s a miracle that everyone is still living today.

I think if everyone of us has a shutdown button, I would be the first to switch myself off.