I have having mixed feelings about life again.  Maybe what I’m doing is not in my blood. Maybe I should try something else?  What am I most comfortable doing?  I realise that I will start to question myself after attending courses or after a holiday trip.  It had happened before and it looks like the whole process will start all over again.  Change is inevitable after all.  Currently there’s just no excitement and the adreneline rush.  There’s nothing to look forward to.  Things are not interesting enough for me to be interested.  Just like people around me.  In fact they are so sickening that I wonder why life is so good to them?  I’m not eating sour grapes but I simply believe evil and scheming pple should come to no good end eventually.

Sometimes I just wish life could be simpler.  Humans are too smart.  That’s why we make things complicated.   What would happen if there is really the end of the world?  I think I would be quite happy. Seriously.  Why?  Cos I feel that human are polluting the earth with every second of our existence.  We are just murdering the earth slowly, taking away all she can give just to prolong our existence in the world.  How will we all die when that day approaches?  What will happen at the end of it?  Perhaps we will just go back to ice age? Or maybe earth would become empty like the moon.  It’s a miracle that everyone is still living today.

I think if everyone of us has a shutdown button, I would be the first to switch myself off.

The story 1 year later

I just realised that it’s been almost a year since my last post… that’s fast.

So am I happier now and is life better? Have I done what I set out to do? Have my questions and prayers been answered? 

As I re-read the old posts, I can’t help but feel that it seems like just yesterday that I wrote them.  Many things have had happened the past year and it’s probably time to do some soul searching.  Or maybe I shouldn’t even waste time on this cos the more I think, the more likely I may act on impulse and implement drastic changes.

I’ve been itching to go backpacking alone for quite a while now.  My first destination will probably be Korea or HK where I think is less intimidating and my target is to go in 2010 or 2011.  Perhaps I’m more suited for a more normadic lifestyle or that I’m too wild to be reined by the working life(read: bo chap).  Life’s been a bore recently and I’m looking for something to liven it up.  Looks like I’ve gotten over it since I don’t think about it much anymore?  I think at least I  have become more truthful about myself to others.

Breathe…..breathe again……breathe deeper……and live better!

Single vs Attached

I think I probably won’t know the difference between these 2 status…hahahah

Something to ponder

Before you speak behind someone’s back, perhaps you should wait a moment, look into the mirror and then decide if you want to say it out.  

The young lady standing in front of me in the bus queue was about 1.6m tall only yet she was commenting on the height of the woman standing before her.  The woman was indeed shorter than normal people but that’s not something she could choose.  When I saw the young lady’s expression when she was making that comment to her father, I just felt like staring down at her(I was wearing a bit of heels and she wasn’t even near my chin herself) and telling her right in the face that she’s no better either.  Obviously my senses got the better of me cos if I did that, I would be at the same level with her.  

Don’t understand people like this lady.  It’s not like the woman offended her in any way.. Really dislike pple like her…Maybe I should have gone ahead to shame her.. but then..haiz.. whatever lah…who am I to do that too.

Apple Cider Vinegar

I started drinking apple cider vinegar about 2-3 years ago after a few friends and relatives recommended it to me.  At first I couldn’t tolerate the taste of this.  The vinegar was sour and on top of that it had a smell too.  So I added it into grapefruit juice.  The taste was gone since grapefruit juice was already sour itself and the smell could be masked off.  The proportions would be 1-2 tablespoons for a big cup of juice.  You are free to add more but I won’t recommend it especially if you have gastric problems.  i’ve moved to mixing it with only water after getting used to the smell and taste.  Some pple add it with honey but I don’t want to introduce more sugar into my diet.

Alternatively, I’ve heard friends who put apple cider vinegar into soups like tom yam as well.  I haven’t tried it before so I’ve got no comments but it sounds good.  I suppose you could add it to your salad dressing too before the olive oil and give it a good toss.  Add more of those vegs to mask off the vinegar taste.

I stopped about a year ago cos I was lazy but I’ve restarted my regime again, drinking twice a day, in the morning and evening.  I’II gurgle my mouth and drink plain water afterwards to clear off the dry feeling I get and since it’s acidic.  Apple cider vinegar is supposed to regulate your weight and promote digestion.  I’ve realised my bowels move more regularly than last time.  There are many claims as to the benefits of this solution but I’m not quite taken in.  These claims range from reducing bad cholesterol, regulating blood pressure, relieving headaches to even helping one maintain better skin and a youthful appearance!!!  Eh.. I think as long as I won’t die drinking from it, should be no harm..hahaha

If you’re thinking of getting one bottle, remember to get the organic kind which has got a brownish tinge to it.  You should see the residue of the fermented apple settling at the bottom of the bottle.

Some pple just … haiz

Got a not-so-nice comment from my another blog… seems to me the person isn’t someone with a good mouth to begin with judging from her own blog.  There’s karma in this world you know.  I think she’s a teacher but probably one with a low proficiency of English.  I couldn’t bear to read her words filled with spelling mistakes and sentences which do not make sense.  Ok.. I won’t waste my time on such people:)

中间 – 梁静茹

曲 composer:潘协庆
词 lyricist:廖莹如

多远能够走完这世界
感觉放到极限
某天无声的雨正下在某处
我被淋湿了
湿透我想才能更勇敢
等着雨过天晴
忽然想要看彩虹
可以拥抱我
我飞越一阵痛楚的转变
懂的想的就那些
原来那就叫作生命的中间
飞越一滴苦涩的眼泪
雨点下的好直接
发现彩虹在天边
渺小的我跑在最前面
那一边是明天
看见那看不见的时间
当我有了从前
往前发出声音告诉这世界
我想要什么
听见我已经开始冒险
泪水流下安慰
哭过的脸最坚决
放晴的瞬间
我飞越一阵痛楚的转变
懂的想的就那些
原来那就叫作生命的中间
飞越一滴苦涩的眼泪
雨点下的好直接
发现彩虹在天边
渺小的我跑在最前面
那一边是明天
我飞越一阵痛楚的转变
懂的想的就那些
原来那就叫作生命的中间
飞越一滴苦涩的眼泪
雨点下的好直接
发现彩虹在天边
渺小的我跑在最前面
那一边是明天
不远来到一切的中间
转变
会变灰色阴天到晴天
那天
了解像勇气的无意间
出现
生命有许多中间

1st comment

I have absolutely no idea what the person wanted to bring across in his comment.  That he had also experienced bad service from HP?  I was just weirdly confused after reading it but I approved it nonetheless.  Haha…

On The Edge 2 and 3

Different perspectives of the drawing that I just did yesterday… It’s become an enjoyment to draw nowadays…But somehow I think there something wrong with the way that I draw…. I think it’s the proportion of sizes but I can’t put a hand on it.. Need to be more observant in future.

(Ok, the shoes on OTE2 looks crap)